Sliding
I feel like I’m sinking into a rut right now. I can’t ever quite put my finger on what it is that causes such ruts on one’s life, but in a general sense I’ve come to privately call this feeling the “Kansas City Effect.”
I’ve been in the city for a little over a year, and it’s starting to set in. This non-specific restlessness and lack of motivation. It happened last time I moved here, but then I was pretty excited about the prospect of moving to a larger city and it caught me off guard. It sent me into what I believe was a depression that lasted nearly five years, and was only cured by the cold air of the Colorado Rockies.
This was one big worry I had when we left Dillon. I didn’t want things to go back to “the way they were.” I don’t know if I need a vacation or what it is. I really think part of it was that, while I was in Colorado, I could take a hike over the weekend, or go off roading in my Jeep, and be rejuvenated. it’s so hot and miserable here (and let’s face it, there’s no where that’s worth hiking through), that you really can’t reinvigorate yourself by taking a walk or whatever.
I’m going down to Lake of the Ozarks this weekend with a buddy, which will hopefully help pull me out of this funk.
